Whooooo are you?

I am...

2009-05-18T10:42:38Z

Having an amazing time. We're in Nairobi, right now, getting to explore town.

Everything is so...I don't know. It's hard to explain. The roads are awful, but the parks are beautiful. There's intense poverty and decent wealth. We live with Kenyan dogs and monkeys that jump on our roofs in the morning. We see giraffes on a daily basis and we met a boy who has a pet cheetah.

I miss home, but I don't know how I can get myself to leave this place.

Stay on the sunnyside...

2009-03-24T05:52:27Z

Life is pretty okay right now. After coming home from my trip to New Orleans, I feel all put back together. Time with Cait is good for that. Talking with her helped me to re-evaluate a lot of things.

I'm doing well in school, and for once in my stint here, I'm really digging all of my classes. Studying isn't such a chore, anymore! Awesome that it took me almost four years to feel like this, right?

It's strange. I've brought back people into my life and I feel like I've lost a couple along the way. It makes me kind of sad to think I've been purged, but it's really not my choice, now is it?

I'm really lucky to have the friends that I do. Even the ones I don't see all that often fit right back into place when I do get to spend time with them. I should call people more often to drop by.

I have a lot to look forward to, and it feels kind of nice to NOT be stressing over the stuff I was getting bent out of shape over, before. It's a nice sense of normalcy. I hope it lasts! There's still a minor bit of fretting here and there, of course, but I feel much more in control of it.

Ah. Spring, come out faster. You're doing me good.

P.S.- I might have to stop watching Hackers for a while.

Beat to the punch.

2009-02-25T22:41:34Z

I started work, this morning. It's...telemarket-y. I wonder how long I can stick with it; probably as long as it takes me to find another job?

I also got ashes, this afternoon, at a Church on campus. I felt the need for ritual and maybe a little soothing. I'm not a Catholic, true, but I like the feel inside most churches and remembering all the word and gestures is kind of comforting.

Much like Caitlin wrote, I am also trying to get myself in order. I'm using the Lent idea as a springboard, but hopefully the changes stick after the period is over. I am trying to watch what I say. I would like to be nicer--I think it's possible? I have a lot of tweaking to do, and I'm not sure where to start, but I hope I keep my motivation. It's a good physical/mental/emotional mix, I think.

As for the rest of everything, I'm not sure on any of that. I'm just looking for break, now. The rest will come when I get it together?

Where's your head at, at, at, at...

2009-02-23T02:02:51Z

I am having trouble focusing (this is news?), so I am killing time here.

Do you currently have a bf/gf/crush/broken heart?
None of the above.
Do you think love is only for the movies?
Sometimes.
What was the last movie you watched?
Batman and Robin. It was as terrible as I remember.
Is it easier for you to write in print or cursive?
Print. How many people say cursive?
What would you say if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?

Fuck.
Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
Hah. I guess anything is possible.
Was the first person to text you today a boy or a girl?
Boy.
What is the 6th text in your inbox?
"I know you've been forbidden to go home but is there an chance I can get my controller back?" from the top, "Also- PERSISTENCE, RESISTANCE" from the bottom.
Name something you have to do tonight?
Write.
What's your favorite number?
Anything even, usually with the number 2.
Do you get jealous easily?
Mmm, not terribly easily. It happens a fair amount, though.
Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
A few people, actually.
What's something that can always make you feel better?
Food and sleep.
Favorite flower?
Lilacs and primroses.
Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Ugh, yes. It's the worst.
What do you do before you sleep?
Roll around for 20 minutes trying to find a comfy position and to clear my head.
Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
My own.
What would you say is your worst flaw?
My mouth, and the things that come out of it.
Would you say that people consider you a major flirt?
Yeah--and I can be, so it's warranted.
If you could re-live one memory what would it be?
I honestly don't know. There are a few moments I wouldn't mind revisiting.
What does the 12th text message in your inbox say?
Top:"You better not be downloading porn and lolcats on my account!" Bottom: "HIS FIRST NAME IS FOX"
Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
They aren't disasterous, but no. I can't.
Where is the next place you will travel to?
New Orleans...and then Kenya? (excluding the trips between NJ and Michigan)
What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Sleeping. Obviously.
What is something you currently want?
World peace...though, I'll settle for inner peace.
Are you going to have a good night?
It's possible.
How long until your birthday?
Another, oh...seven months or so?
Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Depending on my mood.
So far, have you had a good day?
Um...it was a mix of ups and downs, really.
Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
Haha, no. It's 8:49. C'mon.
Who were you with at 4am?
Julius the monster doll
Do you have any bruises?
Only on my ego. Har.
Who last hugged you?
Anthony? I think?
What is tomorrow?
Monday.
What’s your favorite season?
Spring --though, the very beginning of fall comes close.
Do you think that you're a good person?
I think I have my moments, however few and far between.
What are you stressing about right now?
I'm not sure I'm actually stressing--just quietly mulling over lots of things.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yes.
Are you growing apart from someone close?
Yeah. I fear it's more than one.
Name something you CANNOT wait for?
Spring break.
Can you write with both hands?
Not well. It's...almost legible when I write with my left?
Has someone of the opposite sex told you they loved you and meant it lately?
I think so, though not in the expected sense.
What was the biggest mistake you made in the past 24 hours?
Being a bitch. The usual.
Who was the girl you talked to?
Caitlin. =]
Do you wear a nametag at work?
No =[ I wish I was employed.
Ever kissed someone who smokes?
Several people who smoked, actually.

Alright. Now that that's accomplished, perhaps I should go back to article revisions. Sweet.

Great.

2009-02-17T02:53:35Z

You are crazy. I just want you to know that, even though you don't read this. I know it's in your nature to be emotional and to throw massive fits, but that doesn't make it any less exhausting, no matter how long I've dealt with it. Your affection yo-yo-ing back and forth is driving me nuts, especially when everyone else in the family seems to mock me for how much you supposedly adore me. We were doing so well for a bit, there--why'd it go to shit (common theme in my life. It'd be easy to pin-point you as the root)? You should be proud of me. I'm about to graduate. I'm getting the chance to go to Africa. And you know what you shouldn't do? Guilt-trip me about you possibly dying in surgery and then kick me out of the house for the week of spring break.

Love,
Your kid.

My head hurts. So does my stomach, kinda. I think it was from me eating massive amounts of sugar and then Mickey D's today, after not eating it for a month or so. '

My head has actually been throbbing since Valentine's Day.

I don't even know what's going on, anymore. I'm tired. I'm sorry.

And I really don't give a fuck about this exam in the morning. But, Hell, I'll go pretend to study, anyways.

I'm alive...?

2009-02-09T06:54:17Z

That would explain the update. This is me, unable to do my lab report. I leveled with myself, though--one post full of whatever uselessness I choose, and then I must go do my work. Seems fair, right?

I saw He's Just Not the Into You yesterday with Nahid...and I hate admitting I didn't hate it. But there! There's the truth!

This semester is nice, so far. I like my classes and I feel like I could actually do well in all of them. They're genuinely interesting. Life in the apartments is nice, if not a little weird without Holly next door. I miss her, I think. The weather has been more bearable than brutal, and believe me, I am thankful for it. Also! I got into both Study Abroad programs I applied for---one is to Uganda and the other is to Kenya. The Kenya one still has most of my interest, but I'm going to check out the other, tomorrow. I'll have a decision by tomorrow night (since I kind of have to, at the risk of not staying in the Kenya one).

I also have Spring Break to look forward to! Cait and I are going to New Orleans and I am SUPEREXCITEDOMGWTFBBQ. Now all I need is a job and some income! Yes, I know the economy is lame, but SOMEONE must be hiring, and at this point, I could give less than two shits what I end up doing. I can grin and bear it for three months before I graduate/go abroad/go home.

Okay--less substance, more pictures!
Alright, so, I had surgery on the 18th of December, and after morphine and staying overnight, I got to go home with these sweet dressings:

It took about a month for the whole thing to patch up, but now, I have this!

(The scar is on my inner right thigh, just for orientation issues.)

At the very top, you can see remnants of my old scar ( those raised bumps of skin), which had been removed during my surgery. When my doctor told me after I woke up, I was really upset. My old scar was so bold and ugly, so unapologetic about being huge and centipede-like in appearance. I grew into it, after mourning its appearance. It was a part of me for four years and honestly, I loved it. It made me feel special. I liked how the skin was so smooth despite the rough appearance, and how it was the same color as the rest of me. My new scar is red, which I know will fade--but right now, I hate it. It is just a line. There isn't anything special about it. It just sits there and has no character.
BUT. That's not all I got! After my first surgery, I had a condition called lymphedema, which is basically where your lymph fluid isn't reabsorbed into your body like it should be. It wasn't bad at all after my first one, but this time...:

You can see the difference in the ankles and calves, and it goes all the way up the leg, I assure you.

Super. Scars I don't mind, but this is rather icky. I'm hoping it decides to settle down soonish.

I was going to do a survey, but the need to work on my report suddenly caught up with me. Woo for unnecessary entries!

Writer's Block: Know by Heart

2009-02-09T03:10:51Z

Have you ever thought you knew the words to a song and then been shocked to find out what the lyrics really were? What was the song? Did you like your version better?

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When I was younger, I thought the chorus to the song Across the Universe, by the Beatles, was "Kangaroo Dave" instead of "Jai Guru Deva (om)". I know that seems like a weird confusion, but go listen!

For the longest time, I was convinced the song was about some guy named Kangaroo Dave.

Oh, but now I know that I was wrong...

2008-12-08T10:13:45Z

I loathe finals.

I also loathe the fact that I feel like I worked harder this year, and yet I still suck in several classes. Why can't I be more motivated? More driven? Why can't I actually put serious, unquestionable effort into school? It'd be nice to be good at learning.

I feel...weaker, somehow. Not physically, not really mentally, either---my personality is something different. Or, at least, I think it is. I don't know when or where it happened, but something about my emotions/self/whateverwe'recallingit has changed. I don't think I like it. I talk too much and I've stopped listening. I try to catch myself, but I'm always a second too late, and I'm left feeling like an ass. It's like it's out of my fucking control, which is ridiculous. I don't know. I'm just not myself anymore, I guess. I wonder if I'll come back?

The library is lonely at this point of the night/morning.

All right---more Orgo review before my exam. Good luck on finals, everyone!

Shake, shake...

2008-11-09T20:26:32Z

It's been a pretty good week. A new president and the wind-down of the semester, an orgo quiz I actually did well, and McDonald's breakfast at 3:30 AM. Pretty good, right?

I am feeling fit, today--for the past couple of days, actually.

I played Artic Tale last night, on the Wii. It's pretty awesome. Well, kind of. Honestly, it's not really all that good, but it has this addictive quality to it. I think I'm really just looking forward to leveling up to the point where I can play as an Orca. Fuck yes! The Walrus stage is probably badass, too.

It's snowing. How ridiculous is Michigan? But I am in the warm library, reading about guppy sex, but mostly talking to Nahid and Beth. And listening to bad pop music.

Yeah, life is pretty good.

Deviancy...

2008-11-01T19:10:06Z

I honestly don't even know what I'm doing.
I am taking a vow.

My head hurts, but not from the booze. I hardly even drank, last night. Halloween was fun. Holly and I made a good team--I was glad people understood our costumes as Harley Quinn and Poison Ivy.

Ugh. Me. I am such a goober.

No other box...

2008-10-29T23:45:41Z

So, sometimes, reading the weird, poor poetry of others makes me want to do something similar. But alas, I cannot bring myself to do it. I write sins, not tragedies. Hahah, yes, that sentence just happened.

After a mini-trip with Jake to Ann Arbor, where his mother momentarily made me question my existence (though I don't think she meant to), we headed back here. I got to watch An American Werewolf in London, again, whilst writing this six page long memoir for my English class. In case you were wondering, it is full of lame bits like the paragraph above. Anyway, I was kind of proud of it, and it took me until 2 AM to finish. I saved it and went to bed, ready to share it with my group.

Only, when I woke up this morning, and tried to print it for a full fucking half an hour, my printer decided to be a monumental piece of crap and wouldn't print a thing. It was 3:30 before I gave up, and decided maybe the library would be a better bet, but by the time I would be done there, an hour of class would be over. I begrudgingly skipped it, pissed that I had done so much work for nothing!

But, on the plus, it did give me time to get the rest of my costume together. After 40+ plus trips around East Lansing, I think I'm all together. Now, I must dye, glue, and sew. WOO.

I don't know where my head's at.

They're heeeeeeere...

2008-10-28T04:49:40Z

So, after my sweet Orgo exam, my birthday celebrations kicked off. I spent Thursday night with most of the best people I know, here (anywhere, really), and I got to play some video-games! Hell yeah, zombie shooting whilst drunk!

I puked Friday morning, into the glass of water I was drinking from.
But! I shook it off, choked down some shredded wheat, and got ready to go. Sean and Steve were nice enough to accompany me to Detroit, and to get my car back safely. The plane ride was boring, and I dozed off for 20 minutes with my head at a weird angle.

Friday night was spent girl-talking with my mom, debating affectionately with my dad, opening some goofy presents, and watching Forgetting Sarah Marshall with my mom, Cait, and Teryn (!). Cait, Ter, and I had some more girl-talk---Poor Teryn. I'm going to torch Stratis, too.

Saturday! Ter and I slept in until 11:30, and then met with Cait for Red Bank shopping and sushi. That damn reserved parking space bothered me for a whole minute, but I was happy with how fast it faded. I met Gatsby, and he is adorable, like Caitlin claimed. I didn't doubt her, but the proof was much better. By the time we got home, it was time for Teryn and I to get primped.
At 10:40, we FINALLY got to the Dublin House, but opted for Chubby's instead, since Ter could get in there. Erin met us (=)!), as did Matt and Tom---plus Alex and Stephen who were nice enough to drive us. It was pretty silly. Cait took an awesome spill, some bands played, and we were kept company by about 20 people---most of whom were men. They leered and said things like "maybe we should go back inside" when our party waltzed past and into the club. YET! When Cait and I went outside for a smoke, standing there-she looked like a class act and I wasn't bad, either--they wouldn't even talk to us! They just kind of watched us! Grow some balls, gents. We were making it easy.

The best--despite how creepy Cait thinks it is--is when the owner came up to the pair of us at the end of the night. We exchanged names, he wished me a happy belated birthday, and then he invited me to the "small afterparty" where they had "tequila, beer, wine, etc." Not too many people could come, though, since it was a new place. Neighbors and all, right? He told me how awesome the view was; we could see the ocean from the balcony! Imagine! The ocean! I only grew up 20 minutes from it! I got his address and phone number and left to consume a 3 am Broadway Diner burger. It was glorious. Thanks for the ego boost, R.B.

I had to go too soon. Another day to drive around would've been nice, but I'm thankful for the opportunity to destress. I wish I could have the people I have here back home.

I didn't get to take Behr out, either. Huff. Susie is so fat, zomg.

Cait, I miss you, too. I can't wait for simultaneous recovery! ;]!

Video-To-Go has the most amazing movie collection. I am in love. We watched Poltergeist tonight, and after 12 years, I still hate that fucking clown doll.

Kittens, hats, and Fatboy Slim are the best combination for a music video. FACT.

Hello, brother...

2008-10-19T07:48:24Z

I am bad at sly codes and worse at saying what I mean to.

Just start reading my mind from now on, please.

Wait, on second thought (har), that might turn out even worse.

There are a lot of things I want to say, to a scattered handful. I'll probably gobble up most of it, and keep it to myself, because I'm stubborn and because the timing isn't right, or because there isn't the opportunity, there isn't the invitation, and because there isn't a proper medium. Also, because maybe they wouldn't want to hear it, or they wouldn't even care. I've already been talking more than I should, or more than I used to, and I'm not sure I like it. Same broken record, same responses.

I am excited for AMC fearfest to start, just like I enjoy the SciFi 31 Days of Halloween. I know it's cheesy, but I love curling up during October, spending nights watching horror movies good and bad, alike. We watched Stay Alive, tonight, and Dragon Wars. Success.

One more exam before I go home. I need to buckle down and focus on it.

I have nothing of value to say!
Well, other than this: Baby, you deserve far more than this world gives you. You deserve someone who returns all that you give of yourself. I wish I could patch you myself, but I can't, but remember that I love you, for what it's worth. I'll be home, soon, and I would like to give you a big hug.

We fight, we break up. We kiss...

2008-10-17T11:28:37Z

I heard that song no less than six times today. But I still really like it. Oh God.

Womanizer by Britney Spears has grown on me. Oh Godx2.

I have been on such a posting craze lately! I don't even know why! Exclamation points!
I made up a lab today, and it blew, but I at least yielded a product. I was making it up since I completely fucking ruined it the first time. I was the last one to leave. I hate chemistry, btw. Also, I'm pretty sure my TA thinks I'm retarded and she very clearly does not like me. Meh, whatever. Six more weeks, and we never have to see each other again. I also broke two glassware items today! Yay!

What elseeeeeeeeeeee? I am so awake! I've been getting scattered hours of sleep for the past couple of days, but after this morning, I can sleep in! Well, tonight, at least.

In my car, I was wondering (and no, this is not a jab. Real curiousity!) over CDs and tapes people made me. I wonder if any of them recycled the songs on another person. I'd like to hope not, but I guess it's pretty possible. I might be guilty of it. It doesn't totally matter, though, because I still love the tapes I got in high-school and the CDs after, and all the songs exes showed me somewhere along the line. I have a lot of associations to people through songs. I like it. It's always reminding me of things I temporarily forget. Plus, eventually you just get to like things because you honestly just enjoy them, right? It's only mus--no, movies, too, I suppose. Anything else? Well, in my case, clothes. I have a habit of accumulating. I STILL have some of Art's pants, and I dated him sophomore year of high school. They're all worn. I got a new pair of plaid pants like them, which are much more comfy, but there is no dance for them. I have shirts from clubbing with Angela, and jeans I could only dream of fitting a leg in, now. I used to have Cait's hoodie. I wore it all through high school, with that huge rip in the sleeve from jumping a fence. I wore a few pairs of her socks into the ground, too. Scout's sweater, which everyone thinks is ugly, but I find too snuggly to care...Haha, I'm terrible.

Who knows! I'm a fool for the itty bits of hope I let sneak into my head. But I don't care! Oh, the exclamation points!

Maybe maybe maybe....Time to study some more!

Libraries are for lovers...

2008-10-16T04:26:15Z

I am so not into doing work tonight. I think Jake's brain is falling out as he sits next to me--I'm not even talking, and I have that effect!

I look like a goober, apparently, here: http://www.palestra.net/videos/play/16087

I never realized I was that short. I mean, I know I'm short, but when I'm talking to people, they never seem THAT far from eye-level. I might have a complex.

I will be home in another week!

Also, I have never had a boyfriend on my birthday. Not once! I always end up dating later in the year. I've never been kissed under mistletoe, either. While it might be too late to rectify the first, I might be able to pull off the latter.

Finally, I have a new niece! My sister stole my intended girl baby-name, but whatever. Eventually I'll let it go.

Aren't they cute?

I need to go to the Salvation Army this weekend to try and piece together my costume. I might end up seeing Electric Six on Friday, too, maybe.

I want to go to some cheesy bar next Saturday, I think.

Updates? Updates!...

2008-10-11T22:53:49Z

So--
1. I'm unemployed at the moment, and no, I will not talk about it further. We move on!

2. I just got back from Troy, MI, where I had a good time. Holly's family is a lot of fun. Believe it!

3. I get to go home in two weeks!! I am so excited! I really didn't think it would happen but my mom is pretty amazing, sometimes. Most of the time. But don't tell her I said that. Anyway, I leave two days after my birthday and get to spend two nights in NJ. It's not the longest trip, sure, but I'm still very happy! I can go to a bar with my friends, maybe take Behr out....=]

4. One Missed Call= Lulz.

Some tigers stand upright...

2008-10-09T21:55:46Z

I want to be doing something, but there's nothing to do. It's so nice outside! Anyone want to go to a park? Why are all of you busy with other things? Huff.

Also, this Fall Break nonsense makes me jealous! I want a break before Thanksgiving, too, plz! I'm supposed to go to Troy with Holly for a day--I envy her ability to go home for a weekend or a day-trip when she wants. I would like to go home, just for a few days--maybe around my birthday, though I doubt I can swing it considering I lack the a) days off from class and b) fundz.

;_;

Lolz.

Edit: So, after rolling on the floor, watching part of Knocked Up, and the start of the Red Wings game, Tom and I headed out to the mall. We played my FAVORITE mall game, called 'Smell everything in Yankee Candle' and proceeded to try a similar game at Victoria's Secret. I smell like about...forty different sprays right now, but they are all delicious. I'll admit it--I'm a sucker for a good scent.

We stopped in the book store on the way back, and the art books reminded me that I really want to be able to do photography. I know that's a pretty common thing. I would like to be more artistic, though---to make something people thought was pretty and interesting. I think I'm interested in photography, too, because I like the way people turn out in pictures, especially when they're candid. I feel like I don't have enough snapshots.

Don't they make cookies?...

2008-10-08T04:18:13Z

I should really be reading/writing/actually paying attention to this debate, so instead---SURVEYS AND BANTER WITH THE MENFOLKS!

Have you ever been in a perfect relationship?
No. Are there really perfect relationships?

What was the last thing you bought?
Ice cream

Who was the last person to hug you?
My boss.

Have you ever had a pet fish?
Yes--Patches, and Patches Jr. I was uncreative.

Have you ever felt replaced?
Yes.

What do you do when you have a bad day?
Eat, listen to miserable music, and curl up in bed.

Do you ever turn off your cellphone?
not usually, but i wouldn't die if it was off. (Ditto! )

Have you heard a song that reminds you of anyone today?
I heard "Whatever You Like" and I thought of Cait.

Do you listen to love songs when you’re down?
Yes, but only the whiniest ones.

Do you say sorry first?
No, though some people can get me to do it.

Do you want to tell someone how you feel?
Mmm. Not right this instant.

Are you tan?
Does not compute.

Would you get married if you could right now?
Wait, to who!? No, on all accounts.

If someone were to tell you they like you right now, would you care?
...

Are you a forgiving person?
If sorry's were said and actually meant, then yes.

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
Generally, yes, though that doesn't always work in my favor.

Who was the last person you ate with?
Sean, Tom, and Shaw.

Are you mad about anything?
Not at this very moment.

Do you miss anyone?
Of course!

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008?
No.

Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
Depends on what it is you want.

Chapt. 1: The Basics

Initials- P.Q.R.
Middle Name- Quinn
Nickname- Pam, 'La
Sex- XX

Date of Birth- Oct. 22nd.
Star Sign- Libra
Place of Birth- Red Bank
Current Location- East Lansing
Height- 5'4"ish

Hair Length- A wee bit past the shoulders.
Hair Colour- Reddish brownish blah?
Eye Colour- Green. Smidge of gray. Mostly green.
Skin Tone- Transparent.
Piercings- Half-closed ears.
Tattoos- Not yet. Maybe someday. I need something with meaning, first.
Scars and Birthmarks-Little scars scattered all over, a huge scar on my thigh, a birthmark on my leg, and freckles splattered all over.

Chapt. 2: The Background

Mother's Name- Linda
Mother's Hometown- Creskill, NJ
Father's Name- David
Father's Hometown- New York
Do you live with your parents? During the summer and winter breaks.
Do you get along with your parents? Much better now that I'm away most of the time, actually.
Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Married, though they should probably separate.

Do you have any siblings? Two sisters, Meri(deth) and Heather, and two brothers-in-law, Sean and Michael. And Teryn <3
If yes, do you get along? When I see them, yeah. Michael is kind of a pain, sometimes, and Meri and I have kind of grown apart, though.
What pets do you have? Behr, the fuzzy, goth mutt and Susie, the morbidly obese bed-mate.
Did you grow up in a different place than where you live now? Since I currently live in MI, yes.
Where did you spend your summers as a child? I usually stayed in Jersey, just a little further south.
What was the name of your elementary school? St. Benedict's
Who were your best friends in elementary school? Jessica and Melissa, then Amanda, Jasmine, and Caitlin.
What was your best memory from elementary school? Field day, obvs.
What was your worst memory from elementary school? My hair.
What was the name of your junior high school? Same.
(Questions omitted for having all the same answers. )
What was the name of your high school? St. John Vianney
Who were your best friends in high school? Caitlin, throughout, Siobhan, Matt, and at the time, most of my lunch table.
Who was your favorite teacher in high school? Mr. Fano. Fo sho'. =X
What was your best memory from high school? AP English.
What was your worst memory from high school? The douchebags I had to cohabitat with.
Out of elementary, junior high or high school which did you like best? Probably highschool, though I do miss recess.
Did you ever go to the same school as your siblings? Yes, only ten or so years after them.
Did you ever go to the same school as your parents? Nope.
What is your family's cultural heritage? Mostly German and French, with English, Irish, and some other white countries.

Chapt. 3: The Favourites

City-Actually, I might have to say NYC. I used to hate it, but day-trips are lovely.
Vacation- The Ocean City vacation with Teryn.
Food- Salmon sushi and apples. But not together.
Dessert- Anything sweet, I love it. Especially Shop-Rite brownies.
Drink (Non-Alcoholic)- Arizona Iced Tea.
Drink (Alcoholic)- Wine or Cherry Wheat Beer.
Place to Eat- Sultan Wok. Lulz.
Ice Cream Flavour- What is with all these 'u's? Um, chocolate infused flavors, generally.
Season- Fall and spring
Holiday- Halloween or Christmas.
Clothing- PJ pants.
Brand Shampoo and Conditioner- I dig my Redken
Supermodel- Adriana Lima. Mrrowl. I am sad that I can answer this.
Actor- Can't answer.
Actress- Can't answer.
Athlete- Uh....
Athletic Team- Uh...part deux.
Decade- 80's. Or 90's. Plenty of angsty girl rock.
Old Nickolodeon Show- Legends of the Hidden Temple, What Would You Do?, Are You Afraid of the Dark?
Number- 2. Or anything even.
Colour- Blue, red, and green.
Word- Cahoots.
Phrase- "I'm not even supposed to be here, today."
Magazine- The National Enquirer
Cheesy Pick-Up Line- "You're really pretty and you don't move away when I touch you."
Language- French or Latin. Hah.
Country- Canada.
Flower- Fresh lilacs and my primroses
Girl's Name- Evelyn or Genevieve.
Boy's Name- Fin.

Chapt. 4: This or That?

Lefty/Righty- Righty
Rock/Country- Rock.
Diamonds/Pearls- Pearl (necklace? Lolololol.)
Blondes/Brunettes- Brunettes, mrrrowl.
New York/Montana- New York. Though Montana might help soothe my misanthropy.
USA/Canada- Canda.
Gold/Silver- Silver. Gold is too bright.
Hummer Limo/Stretch- Stretch. I refuse to step foot in a Hummer.
Gatorade/Powerade- Gatorade, not hate-orade.
Diet Coke/Regular- Regular, as long as it's Cherry.
Chicken Fingers/Chicken Nuggets- Fingers. OH GOD, YES.
Subway/Taco Bell- Taco bell, ftw.
Plane/Train- Trains make me less nervous.
Skiing/Snowboarding- Or. I've never done either :[
Cliff Diving/Shark Diving- Shark diving.
East Coast/West Coast- East Coast. We ride until we die.
George Bush/John Kerry- Or, again, please.
Britney Spears/Christina Aguilera- Xtina's the better singer, but Brit's the better trainwreck.
Charlotte York/Samantha Jones- Charlotte is so damn cute.
Lindsay Lohan/Hilary Duff- LiLo, always and forever.
The O.C./Laguna Beach- I can't believe these are questions. Also, like, isn't Laguna Beach like, totally real? The O.C. so isn't. x_x
The Flinstones/The Jetsons- The Flintstones.
Full House/Fresh Prince of Bel-Air- Full house. Oh, Uncle Jesse.
Growing Pains/Boy Meets World- Boy Meets World. I never saw Growing Pains
The Brady Bunch/The Partridge Family- The Brady Bunch. But I did like the Partridge's.
Peanut Butter/Jelly- Peanut butter is more versatile.
Creamy/Crunchy- Creamy.
Red Rover/Capture the Flag- RED ROVER.
Mother May I/Simon Says- Mother May I, totally.
Lake/Pool- Pool. Fishies all up on my legs kind of make me jittery.
Snow Day/Spring Day- Do people get Spring Days off? Wat?
Chihuahua/Bernese Mountain Dog- Bernese Mountain Dogs, thanks. I like a dog who can hold his own.
London/Paris- Paris is lovely, but London was more lively. Plus, it has soccer hooligans ;D
Shower/Bath- Shower.
Fruity Pebbles/Cocoa Puffs- Cocoa Puffs.
Target/Wal-mart- Target.
AIM/MSN Messenger- AIM, or meebo.
Manolo Blahnik/Birkenstock- Birkenstocks. All the way.
Coco Chanel/Louis Vuitton- I like Chanel's colors more.
Janice Dickinson/Twiggy Lawson- Twiggy.
City Mouse/Country Mouse- Country mouse.
Winter Olympics/Summer Olympics- Summer Olympics?
Apples/Bananas- Apples. And make them Macintosh.
Liberal/Conservative- Extreme left. Lulz.

Chapt. 5: Do You... (Do, do you...)

Sing in the shower? Sometimes. Quietly, usually, unless I know I'm alone.
Write memos on your hand? Yes. And on every scrap of paper I own.
Call people back? If I like them, if the situation warrants, and if I'm not about to see them in an hour.
Have your driver's liscense? Yes. The real question is...should I?
Believe in a thing called love? Sure. Just listen to the rhythm of the heart.
Knock on wood? Never had to, but I'm sure isn't good. (TWO IN A ROW! And yes, I do. )
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? At home, yes, because my cat takes up the other side.
Speak another language? Bad, minor French and dead, improper Latin. Also, select Russian words.
Think you're attractive? I'm decent?
Wear glasses or contact lenses? Glasses. Bifocals. :[[
Have any weird pet peeves? Yeah, probably, though I can't identify them right now.
Have any weird hobbies? I'm sure I do. I probably just don't find them weird.

Chapt. 6: Have You Ever...

Gone skinny dipping? Affirmative. In the ocean, no less!
Worn braces? Haha, yes. I was just recalling this with Holly.
Smoked a cigarette? Yes. Several, thanks.
Smoked anything else? What're you? A Narc?
Broken a bone? Not yet, surprisingly.
Had stitches? Yes!
Kissed a member of the same sex? Yes. OMIGOD, so hott!!!!1!!
Shoplifted? I'm not that cool.
Punched someone in the face? Yes, though I usually don't mean to. I have bad aim and control.
Skipped school? When my mom and I overslept, she'd just call in for me. I never actually skipped, though.
Flown first class? I don't think so? Maybe once.
Traveled to another continent? Surely have.
Used racial slurs? When singing rap songs? I like sexist slurs, better.
Taken pain killers? Oh yes. Legally, though. Again, not so rebellious.
Taken sleeping pills? No, but the painkillers usually made me fall asleep.
Rode in a limousine? Yep! Wedding parties and prom.
Been stung by a jellyfish? No, and I have a sick fear of it.
Been stung by a bee? Yes. Fuckers.
Thrown up in a restaurant? Hahah, no. That'd be excellent, though.
Made a snow angel? A dozen, approx.
Been to overnight camp? Hell yeah, girl scout camp.
Written a letter to Santa Claus? Yes. I even told him all the page numbers for catalogue reference. Sidenote: I have also written a note posing as Santa Claus.
Sworn in front of your parents? A lot. Sometimes my mom still thinks to correct me.
Had detention? Yes. Once for being too loud? And the others for being late.
Been sent to the principal's office? Yes.
Screamed? Who has never screamed before?
Made a prank phone call? Yes. And I loved every one.
Been to the opposite end of the country? Nope. Only gotten as far as the middle.
Been called a bitch? Almost daily.
Been called a whore? Oh, Nahid. I miss you.
Been called a prude? Yeah! By Kenny Midoneck! What a toolbox that guy was.
Met someone famous? Nobody really famous.
Slept naked? Totally. Haven't done it in a couple months, though.
Gone streaking? Yeah, kinda? In a park at age...14?
Play ding-dong-ditch? Hahah, no.
Climbed a tree?- Yes. I used to climb the one in my backyard all the time.
Been kissed under a misteltoe? I don't think I ever have, actually.
Had a threesome? No, but there's still time. Want in?

Chapt. 7: Pick Your Perfect...

Pizza- Stuffed crust, barbeque chicken. Mm.
Bagel- Eli's plain with cream cheese.
S'more- Um...a s'more style s'more? Warm and gooey.
Sandwich- Chicken, basil, tomato, and mozzarella.
Sundae- Anything with hot fudge, plz. No pistachio or rum raisin, though.
Date- It's not so much the activity, more who the person is. But...um...a day-trip to a city and then a night in, making dinner together.
Outfit- I have no fashion sense.

Chapt. 8: Random

If you could take back one thing from your childhood, what would it be? My obliviousness.
Would you rather win an Oscar or Nobel Prize? Fine. Nobel Prize. But I really wanted the Oscar.
What time do you get up in the morning? Never early enough.
What time do you go to sleep? What is this sleep?
If you could bring 6 items with you to a desert island, what would they be?
Food, fresh water, a way to contact people for rescue, a tent, some sort of entertainment, and sunblock.
Do you prefer blonde hair or brown hair on the opposite sex? Brown, generally.
What's one thing you've always wanted to do, but haven't done yet? Play an instrument well.
If you were on death row, what would you request for your final meal? An assortment of fresh fruits, some chicken dish, a bottle of wine, and something chocolate-y.
If you could travel anywhere in the world, which location would you pick? I would like to check out Ireland.
If the world floods and you can only save 1 animal species, you'll save- Sumatran tigers.
What are the last 4 digits of your cell phone number? 1127

That took two hours, basically. Now I should go read that book...

It was a slap in the face...

2008-10-05T15:59:40Z

There is only one good that comes from the shit-storm of my morning: suddenly, all that petty shit I was so stressed out about doesn't matter in the fucking slightest.

Hopefully, this is a lesson I will retain. Probably not. I need a stiff drink and a punch to the temple.

4 realies...

2008-10-04T22:49:33Z

I seem to be bored, lately, which means this gets a lot more posts put into it.

Okay, so, I've been at work for like...six and a half hours, now, and it's been completely uneventful. BUT! This guy that regularly comes in during my shift strolls in, offers a hello, and heads to the back office to study. Fine, cool, whatever. Generally, he's nice and friendly, and occasionally he'll ask for a favor, like printing off a few pages, and that's no big deal. So, after hanging out in the back room, he saunters back to the desk and makes some small talk, then asks for the paper cutting thing, which I let him borrow. After I'm done putting it back, he asks for a stamp. So, I'm all 'Yeah, sure. .42 cents". Easy enough. I go to get it for him, noting he hasn't pulled out any change and that all he said was 'Thanks'. I poke my head out to say: 'Um, do you have the change?' And he replies: 'What? Oh, no...' I answer with a 'Well, I can't just give it to you...they're part of the cash bank...' and he has the NERVE to say 'Wait...don't you have any change?'

What. The. Hell. I am not your friend. I don't owe you anything. And BY THE WAY, mister, you are NOT charming, you sure as fuck are not my type, and I don't do you small favors because I find you appealing in any way. This is my job. Get the fuck over yourself, asshole.

Huff.

But I won't call you on it...

2008-10-02T15:57:34Z

The fact that I still find you really attractive is like...the bane of my existence.

I could eat stuffing forever. Om nom nom.

Obama is speaking on campus, today. Maybe I should go?

I really love stuffing. I just ate a whole box in two days. In other news, I need to start working out.

You used to be cute...

2008-10-01T18:58:12Z

Apparently, my dog has been acting up at home. Poor puppy =[. I honestly feel like I miss him more this time around and I want to go seeeeee him. Eight weeks seems like much too long a time to have to wait. I want to visit Cait and cuddle with my dog tomorrow, not in November. Huff.

I need to start working on my Halloween costume. I feel like that will kill time and provide a good distraction. All my work should be keeping me busy, but, well...this is me, after all.

My webcam interests and frightens me. I want to play with it, and to make stupid faces into it, but I can't bring myself to turn it on. What if it opens up on its own!? What if it watches me!? Oh God.

What else? Oh! My surgery will probably be during Christmas break. Sweet? I was half planning on going back to work at Kohl's for a bit, but I'll be out of commission until Christmas, I think, if my mom has it scheduled right. Is it bad that I'm a little excited for the painkillers? Yes, probably. I am more excited about the new scar. Hopefully it's just as bitchin' as the one on my leg---maybe I can connect them! Maybe Cait and I can get surgery together, and be all doped out and comforting of the other's pain!

I went to the RenFest over the weekend. It was ridiculous! If I ever go again, I need to get a sweet costume.

My TV makes horrible noises. Also, I love the fall. But I hate how cold it got here, already. =/.

Build me up, buttercup...

2008-09-26T06:32:00Z

I won't apologize for being mad. I needed some time to be pissed and hurt, and the latter still stands. But my temper tantrum got old, faster than I realized. Being bitter made me tired, and eventually, I realized I looked dumb playing the game alone.

So. On to the good stuff, because though you could be a jerk, you did good stuff, too. I'm hoping by writing it and remembering it fondly, I'll get to pay you back for some of the vague, sweet things you might have written about me--and maybe it'll help me, too. I want to reminisce and think about how it was nice, because being grumbly about it makes it harder to stop thinking about. It's not everything, but here goes (this may get mushy, so if you are not the subject, you might want to stop reading):

You've a lovely jaw, which I know I told you before, but it is very much true, still. I click through pictures every now and then and I remember how much I liked it, and the dumb faces you make. I liked fussing with your hair. The lame, music jokes were nice, and I know you liked them, even when you did the "are you serious with that!? Half the time. ALL right." One of my favorite times is when we stayed in and played house, making dinner together. Thank you for that. Thank you for sitting around while my pets made you sick, because I pouted about staying at my place.

I thought about the time when we were in your basement, and you were sitting there, playing guitar, while I was the captive audience. The weakness for musicians was part of it, but you were most of it. Especially when you humored me on the drums, and told me you'd teach me how to play if I really wanted--it sounded sincere (I'm probably not the best judge on that, though...). That was the reason I wrapped my arms around you while you were playing. And when you fashioned together a more functional purse from my old one and the new one I was unsure of is still one of my best summer moments.

You were more patient than I gave you credit for.

I hope you're well, which I'm sure you are, and I'm sorry everything fell apart the way it did. I don't hate you, but you know that, and I guess that's all I wanted to say?
And that, dear readers, is the end of that for a while. I promise! I really should have done that in a different medium, but I'm stubborn and all---plus I wanted to offer it as a kind of alternative to the mopetastic shit I've been writing lately. Debbie Downer moments should be used in more moderation!

I saw Nas and Brand New, tonight, along with this interesting little band called The Builders and the Butchers. I really enjoyed them. Brand New was actually...kind of disappointing. They didn't play any of the classics, which I should have expected. That was years ago. Everything they did play was a little too sad sounding for the venue. Nas was really good--though I left after three songs. The guy's personality between songs was part of the reason. It was an iVote event, so of course, there was a taped message from Obama addressing the MSU campus (which was pretty neat), and my awesome classmates booed at an ex-POW (who was also on the Amazing Race?) when he mentioned supporting McCain. He took it like a champ, though. Despite the fact that I haven't caught election fever, it is kind of cool just to see how big this whole thing is getting and how intense the campus is about it. Oh! Brand New did make my night by basically wandering out onto stage after being announced and stating "Uh, yeah. We're not a political band. We're just gonna play". I think them telling me to "rock the vote" would have made me barf.

Also, I liked how I smelled weed 3.5 seconds after Nas started up.

Cellphones still do not equal lighters, people. And I anticipate looking like a tool in some online news-video clip about the concert. I said all of three words, and I'm sure I made an abundance of stupid faces.

I have had two hours of sleep in the past forty something hours. I will fix this, now!

Don't mean a thing to me...

2008-09-24T07:43:38Z

You're really upset, who is the first guy you go to?
Jake, probably.

You're really upset, who is the first girl you go to?
Caitlin, Siobhan, or Holly.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
No, as long as they don’t stink of it, constantly.

Can you do a split?
Not all the way down =[

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
In the morning, though I hate waking up. Sleeping on my hair wet makes it curl to the roots.

Have you been to New York City?
It’s kind of hard not to visit when you live so close.

Who was the last girl you talked to on the phone?
My madre.

Who was the last guy you talked to on the phone?
Sean.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
Maybe? I would like to think so, but I won’t flatter myself.

Last time you laughed really hard?
I laugh all the time, but a really good one? I can’t remember.

Do you know anyone addicted to anything?
Sure. Who doesn’t have a minor addiction, these days?

Where is your phone?
On the bed next to me.

Does a heartbreak feel as bad as it sounds?
I don’t think I’ve had a full one, but the minor one blows pretty hard.

What happened at 10:00AM today?
I was willing myself out of my warm bed.

Do you need to say anything to anyone?
A lot, actually. But I can’t, and I won’t.

How do you feel?
Angry/bitter, but mostly decent.

When was the last time you cried?
I teared up today, but the last time I actually cried was on Sunday, I think? I must be hormonal.

What do you think about your top 3 friends? (lulz. Myspace)
Caitlin is the cheese to my macaroni, Siobhan is my partner in hijinks, and Teryn is my fashion-forward sister.

What is bothering you right now?

Certain stupid fucks. And I’m kind of cold?

What bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine.
Won't be sleeping there this weekend which SUCKS

What are you looking forward to?
Dinner I don’t have to cook tomorrow, Brand New on Thursday, and going out on Friday.

Do you get mad or discouraged when you're wrong?
E-heh. Let’s say defensive. And then I can admit it three hours later.

Are you crazy?
Oh man, I’m totally zany!!!1!!!11

Have you ever kissed a brown haired, blue eyed person?
Yeah, actually. I think two people fit those descriptions?

What was the last conversation on the phone about?
Disneyland, missing phone calls, being sick, and calling doctors.

Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?
Caitlin, definitely, and Siobhan and Ter, too. I pretty much already live with Jake, since he lives next door, and I am always invading. Caleb, though? Ehhh..=]

Is there anyone you wish would just fall off a cliff?
Yes. Though, I don’t really mean that.

Are you tan?
No. I wonder what that would be like…

Do you like your hair?
Hah! Well, it’s okay, sometimes.

Do you always wear make up?
It’s kind of my compulsion.

What did you do today?
Woke up, went to class, made dinner, and saw Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist at a free showing. I liked it.

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
Ugh. I doubt they have this fucking problem.

Do you care what others think about you?
More than I should, sometimes.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Stole it from some jerk.

Have you held hands with anyone in the past three days?
Nope.

How late did you stay up last night?
Only until about 2:30

Are you growing apart from someone close?
A few people.

What is your favorite color/colors?
Red, blue, green, and purple.

Are you happy with life?
Usually? I’ve been moody, lately. Ask me later.

Have you ever made out against a car?
Yes. Also, I’ve done the typical make-out in the car.

Who did you last talk to for longer than 10 minutes on the phone?
Jesse.

Ever kissed a dark haired, dark eyed person?
Yup. Hmph.

How many people have you kissed this past week?
Nada.

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a J?
Ugh. Yes.

Do you get distracted easily?
Sometimes, unless I actually have interest in what I’m doing.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive, usually.

Do you give out second chances too easily?
Yeah

Have you ever had a black and white cat?
Aw. Buddy. =[

Your thoughts of long distance relationships?
They can work if you both want it enough, and if the other person isn’t completely full of shit. And themselves.

When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Last week.

Is there drama in your life right now?
Mmmm. No. Nothing serious.

Do you call anybody by their last name?
Fink (often), WOZ (even though it isn’t his full last name), and that’s as far as I can think, right now.

Do you have a best friend?
I do. It’s a silly term, but nothing else seems appropo.

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Fuck you.

Do you hate being alone?
I don’t always like it, but I’m pretty good at handling alone time.

What is your favorite things to spend money on?
Food. Fatty 4 lyfe.

Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
Nope. No one beats Julius, the stuffed cuddle-monster.

Are you good at giving advice?
I would like to think I’m helpful?

Do you believe you have common sense?
I believe it exists somewhere in me. It’s collecting dust.

Can you use chopsticks?
Yeeeeees. I like to pretend I’m awesome at wielding them.

When is the last time you took a nap?
Sunday, when I passed out in Jake’s bed for 2 hours.

Who all has texted you in the past 24 hours?
Nick, Jake, Kari

What makes you laugh?
Most things. Internet jokes, usually.

Do you cry easily?
Not usually! Ridiculous.

Do you currently have a hickey on your neck?
Man, if I did, that would be pretty surprising!

If you married the person you last texted, what would your last name be?
Archibald.

Do you know a secret about your last ex that would embarass them?
Maybe? No, actually, probably not.

What is one fact about the last person who called you?
He’s 27.

Last time you washed your hair?
This morning.

Can you ice skate?
Not without falling several dozen times.

Do you have a brother?
Two –in-laws. But I consider them family.

Do you keep a planner?
Believe it or not, I do! I already put it all my assignments, even!

Do you like to grocery shop?
Generally, though sometimes I have trouble deciding on healthy choices.

Has someone close to you passed away this year?
No. I am very thankful for that.

Are you getting engaged any time soon?
AHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHH

What's the best part about being single?
Not having to look cute.

Last thing you bought?
Bubble tea. Mango stars and coconut cream, awwww yeah.

If some one paid you $100 would you dance in the middle of times square, would you?
Uh, yeah? Who wouldn’t? You think New Yorkers would really care, anyway?

Have you ever been in a car crash?
Several, minor and major.

Have you ever hugged a stranger?
Yes.

How was/is the food in the cafeteria at your school?
It’s actually pretty good. I miss it. =[.

Are you any different now than you were a year ago?
I think so. I’m not sure how, exactly.

Has anyone ever written a song about you?
Haha, yeah. I had a few emo ones written back in high school and a groovy one by Ross and Holly last year.

How’s the weather?
Lovely! The start and middle of fall are awesome.

Whats the farthest away from home you have ever been?
france (ditto) and England.

Do you drive with your windows up or down?
Depends. Up, on highways and such, but down when I’m on campus or driving around at home.

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
spring (ditto…or fall.)

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Jake.

What's on your schedule for tomorrow?
Class, dinner out, volunteer meeting at the zoo, and cram session.

Do you think that you’re a good person?
Sometimes.

Did you have a good birthday this year?
Haven’t had it, yet!

Does anyone know your password besides you?
Greg knows my MSU password. Lil’ devil.

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Haha, no! The more dirty details the better!

Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
Of course. Doesn’t that happen to everyone at least once?

Did you date anyone last summer?
Mm. Next question?

Do you hate the last guy/girl you had a thing with?
Define thing. It’ll skew the answer, slightly. Well, hate? No.

Who was the last person in your bed besides you?
Holly, most likely.

Can you vote next election?
Yes! I AM THE CHANGE! Lolololol.

You can only drink ONE non alcoholic beverage for the rest of your life.

What would it be?
Iced tea. (ditto!)

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
No. Usually just irritating, dumb, and sometimes adorable.

Is there something that reminds you of someone every time you see / hear it?
Of course! I have plenty of songs, commercials, videos, etc. that remind me of people—same with items.

Do you clean when you’re upset?
Actually, yeah. It helps me de-stress, some, and clear my head.

You're phenomenal. You're so clever...

2008-09-22T05:21:46Z

I want to be through this phase. I am impatient and moody, and I can't stand checking the same stupid things over and over. Didn't I have a life, before? Against better reason, I listened. Maybe I was trying to prove something.

This weekend I became even more nostalgic for freshman and sophomore year, where we were always stumbling around campus, getting into some nonsense or another. It just felt like there was more to do. More options? I think I'm just starting to worry about things ending. This year feels so final, and I hate that I can't shake the feeling. I can't shake a lot of feelings I would prefer to. God, I'm sick of whining. I'd rather just swallow it all back down. Sorry for annoying the piss out of you menfolk and select womenfolk that share my daily space.

Mmm. What else? Oh. I'm pretty much ridiculously lucky to have the friends I do. Jake understood my need to just sit in and drink last night casually while talking, which sounds lame, but...oh, I can't explain it. I miss my Moose, because she gets it, too. Not like I'm some complex creature to be figured out or anything--some things and people just fit the right way.

I think Holden is worth investigation. I'm treading carefully.

Today, I spent a good four hours walking around a zoo, feeding melons to animals. It was excellent. =]. It was nice to be out and enjoying what I could possibly be doing as a career. I do really love watching kids and adults brighten up at the sight of enrichment behavior. I'm a nerd, btw.

Oh! Quick thing that I thought to note---so, when we were preparing the melons and such for the animal exhibits this morning, this one older woman came in with these paper mache footballs and stuff she'd made to go along. She made this paper mache hot-dog that I honestly just processed as "yeah, cute, a hot dog", but she kept going ON about how before she'd added the mustard line of paint, the pink she'd made for the hot dog just made it look like a big vagina. And all the other old women cackled about it and for once, I felt really awkward joking about vaginas. Every time we saw a new older lady, or someone commented on how great the paper mache things were, the woman had to comment on the Georgia O'Keefe hotdog.

My goodness.

Last thing!